|Sunday, June 24th, 2007|
shit's gettin so screwed up lately, i feel out of place no matter where i go. I started to feel ...fake... so i tried to change myself so that i no longer feel that way... no more acrylic nails, no more thousand dollar shopping sprees, nothing like that anymore. I actually have short nails for the first time since like...DECEMBER! it's nice actually =] but things still feel wrong, i miss my old self.
|Sunday, February 18th, 2007|
last night pat signed online and we were talking and then he proceded to tell me that he cheated on me three times this weekend. Just making out you ask?? oh no he went the whole nine yards. But it was only with one girl right?? Nope this guys and over-achiever, he cheated on me once with one girl and two times with another. Then the jerk had the nerve to say he wanted to be with me. here's part of the convo:( Promises never last Forever.Collapse )
|Friday, February 2nd, 2007|
|Sunday, January 28th, 2007|
Why does everything fall apart?
Ashleigh like...hates me, I didn't do anything wrong and yet I get blamed for stuff...I'm sick of fighting with everyone. I'm always so angry and I hate it. I have so much hate bottled up inside and I'm so sick of being pissed off at people.
|Saturday, January 27th, 2007|
|Friday, January 26th, 2007|
I get to see him tuesday and I can't wait because this boy is my whole ♥.
So I printed like 30 pictures in the past hour and I'm in such a good mood cause I can't wait to see my boy =]
|Saturday, January 13th, 2007|
so it is a new year.
I started Prozac today, hopefully things will help me and I will start feeling happier. that would be nice.
and he makes me smile, and he isn't even mine...yet. =]
|Thursday, January 11th, 2007|
I'm totally and completley happy for once and that is awesome....
And he is the reason =]
|Saturday, December 2nd, 2006|
okay so I so don't appreciate being told that I am a screw up and a failure and all this other bull. I made a mistake, yes, we've established this, It's over and done with. And WTF I didn't cheat on Nick, it was the other way around. SO SUCK A DICK. I'm so sick of always being judged no matter who it is. And I don't need bull from guys either. I don't love anyone. Ashleigh is the only one who has never really screwed with my head, she deserves my love and friendship. Everyone else? Fuck em.
|Sunday, November 26th, 2006|
I want you to take my breath away
I wish I wouldn't be confused this way and I wish things weren't so tough and I wish I could make people love and I wish I could make people happy and I wish that things worked out the way I want and I wish that I had the power to change things and I wish I could save my friends from themselves and I wish songs didn't have to be so sad and I wish they weren't all connected with the memories I hold inside of
Just something I was thinking, all the memories of my past, all the things I've seen and experienced. I need to get away somewhere so I can be myself...I used to be so happy and I used to look for the good in everything, but honestly I can't remember the last time I smiled and actually meant it, the last time I laughed and actually was laughing and not just going along with things. And I wish more then anything that my tears were not in vain and that something will be left behind when I leave this world. But wishes are just that...things said in jest when we think that there might be a chance for things to turn out okay.
|Friday, November 24th, 2006|
So here's an entry to read. Fuck Off. Seriously. Don't bullshit me and talk about me behind my back and then act like that wasn't the case. I get both sides of the story, don't forget, and neither is whole or completley true. So until it is, I am done. I am done with fighting, done with crying, done with feeling completley fucked up everytime I talk to you/him. I have enough shit going on without you guys dragging me into your fights, which it's not about me, because I haven't done anything to cause you two to fight. So until you two get whatever it is that you're both lying to me about straightened out, I am insanley sorry but I can't really believe either one of you. So how's that sound?
If You're Not On My Friend's List, it's For a Reason. Now Get The Fuck Out!
|Monday, May 1st, 2006|
|Saturday, December 3rd, 2005|
This year I've been busy!
Last Monday I donated bone marrow to blissfuldreamer in a life-saving procedure (300 points). Last Wednesday I put gum in xxtearsxx18's hair (-12 points). In August I gave change to a homeless guy (19 points). In January I robbed a bank with girlmetworld (3 points). Last Sunday I helped nevergonaleave see the light (8 points).
Overall, I've been nice (318 points). For Christmas I deserve a red Radio-Flyer wagon!
|Friday, September 2nd, 2005|
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